hi jon! i dont know if you are the same jon hendrik i met around 2003 or 2004. i accidentally found your blog. anyway, so are you still here in the philippines? i now work with the cordillera peoples alliance, an alliance of organizations in the Cordillera advocating for indigenous peoples' rights.
Dear Jon Henrik, I hope your feelings have changed a little. Ethnography is a priviledge and a curse. More of the latter perhaps when our "faith" in the project weakens - but then it is just a (strange) job I guess it is inevitable to have such periods (loong ones, even) of doubt, wondering and boredom, when choosing to do something so out of the ordinary, and far away from our everyday places, people and concerns. All I can say now, though, is thank you for sharing those thoughts. It means a lot, and gives a lot of food for thought now that I am about to plunge into a similar situation. Don't stop writing.